This time last year I picked out the word FLOW.
I had been suffering with clinical anxiety for at least a year (probably more, I just didn’t have a diagnosis) and was exhausted with the effort it takes to try and control everything.
Instead of desperately grabbing for every rock to hold me steady, I wanted to learn to go where the flow of the river took me. I wanted to release my grip and enjoy the surprises of life.
This was easier said than done.
And the funny thing about anxiety and depression is that you fight change with every ounce of your being, but to get better, change is inevitable.
So, I went to counselling, I saw my doctor every month, I started taking medicine, and I dropped out of school.
Learning to FLOW was necessary in 2014.
And I did learn. And I’m still learning.
This year my word didn’t come to me immediately.
I knew how I wanted to FEEL in 2015 – financially savvy and secure, motivated, cozy and relaxed.
I knew what I wanted to DO in 2015 – see this blog blossom, get back into school, start working again, keep a regular yoga practice, balance, and enjoy myself.
But I couldn’t quite put a word to the lists.
Until I read through Vivienne McMaster’s 100 Word of the Year Ideas and saw THRIVE.
I want to THRIVE financially, in my education, with this blog, in my self-love journey, and with my mental health.
I want to THRIVE by living authentically and sharing my truth.
I want to THRIVE despite the days where depression gets its hold or anxiety fights for control.
I want to THRIVE in 2015.
Tell me below what you want for 2015 in the comments.